Hi,

I read your “You Are the Last Person to Know You Are an Alcoholic!” posting… and this: “It is not how much you drink or how often you drink but what happens when you do drink! The last person to know you are an alcoholic is you!”

To reply/comment on that last part in particular: “The last person to know you are an alcoholic is you!”

I almost started my comment out with: “Are you F…… kidding me?!” But I reconsidered, so I am not going to…

If that’s how you look at your own addiction disease, you’ve surely got a surprise coming, and I might warn you up front… A BIG one!

If that’s how you look at your own addiction disease, you are CLARELY – and without NO DOUBT, living on a big, fat lie. You are probably hiding yourself behind it, if I sense it right.

Let me tell you something: You’re not fooling any other than yourself!

I am a recovering alcoholic, now 41 years of age. I began my drinking career when I was 12 years of age, and let me share a secret with you:

I knew from the very first second on that very first time that I had a problem with alcohol.

Why?

Because: I was not in any way like any and all others when I drank;
- I didn’t feel like (probably) any and all others. I felt normal…

- I didn’t consume the same amount of alcohol like any and all others. I doubled, trippled and some times quadrupled other people’s amount.

- I didn’t behave like any and all others. The consequences of my alcohol & drug abuse over the years… It’s a sad story…

- I couldn’t stop like any and all others. When others went home because they’ve had enough, I stayed out, seeking out other sources to get more, much more.

- I got more sick than any and all others. The above mentioned in multiple combinations… You do the math!

I carried this wisdom with me, in every second on every day of my 22 year drinking career, so please don’t tell me BS like “The last person to know you are an alcoholic is you!”.

I know that you know! I also know that you have known it for a long, long time!

I know ALL about your mind, ALL about your thoughts, ALL about how your body work and behave,
- and how it aches for more, each and every day.

I know ALL about whether you are sincere – enough – or not.

I know ALL about whether you lie – about your disease – or not.

I know ALL about every lame excuses you have used, and ALL about those you plan to use.

I know ALL about every plans you have used, and ALL about those you plan to use, to get more…

I know ALL about every experience you have had, and ALL about the subsequent consequences…

I know ALL about the experiences you are going to get, if you need more (addiction disease) “beating”.

I know ALL about your up’s and down’s in Life. Trust me. I know.

If you are an addict – like me, I know about ALL aspects of you, your life, your inner thoughts, your behaviour, your good and bad habits,
what you might say and what you might not want to say, what you might do and what you might not want to do.

And I can let you in on WHY I know this, and WHY I so profoundly and blatantly can proclaim that I do:

Because YOU are in MY Mirror!
- just as much as I am in Yours!

So I know EVERYTHING!

I have (literally!) been there, done AND experienced that!

The sooner YOU realize that YOU are An Alcoholic…, and the sooner YOU realize that YOU are NOT in control of YOUR OWN own life, and admit YOURSELF 100 per cent, fully and completely to that two parted life changing confession, only then will you be able to do something about it.

I repeat: ONLY THEN!

Then again, the admission is only do-able, if you have had enough (addiction disease) “beating”…

Have you – or do you need some more?!
“The Viking”

 

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